Identifying your moments

These weeks feel like the water has drained out of the bay before the Tsunami. It is quiet now, but you know it is imminent. When it hits it will turn everything upside down and send our consciousness sprawling. It is a delicious time.

The obviousness of it is only quieted by the internal knowledge of how long this long shot experience is. It is unbelievable that this is happening. We'd mostly given it up except for a nascent and non-serious discussion of DIYing it somewhere.

In this "calm" we spend our hours on procedural crap: trying to avoid going to SFO for a day trip to get our work permit turned into a work visa and just do it when we get to Berlin. Or we sort and pack. Or we wonder abstractly about what exactly I will be doing in the job over there since I still haven't seen a work description. It is hard to sleep even though we know we need it but the nervous stress/excitement and lists force their way through our unconsciousness and start loud construction projects on our brain in the middle of the night.

The sight of empty shelves in rooms and stacked packing boxes is adrenalizing.



From "It's Always Now": a beautiful video on dialing yourself in to the present moment.

"It requires a change in the attentiveness you pay to your experience in the present moment."